Thus revealed, the creature buried its nose in the tire-tilled soil...
June 10, 2005
I could just die.
Category: Miscellany

Yes, I think that I could do it right now. I can scarcely maintain an upright position for exhaustion; a painful amalgamation of queasiness and hunger festers in my gut; my senses are on edge, such that my head swings 'round at the slightest rustle in the distance -- and the office resounds with sound! The hum of the fan, the tick of the clock, footsteps in the hall, voices in the office, the irregular drip of water from the ceiling onto the plastic bag that lines the interior of the trash can behind my desk, a distant beeping from somewhere -- I know not where! -- all of these devils assault my peace of mind and conspire to bring about my fate. And these on top of those unhappy concerns that already plagued my troubled thoughts! Had I a pistol in my desk drawer, I would gladly splatter my brains across its glossy, varnished surface.

I finished reading Goethe's The Sorrows of Young Werther this morning. Poor Werther! Good book.

-posted by Wes | 9:47 am | Comments (9)
9 Comments »
  • Jesus says:

    O_o sounds like you aren't enjoying your job at all. At least you can browse the web at work. I think I got fired from one of my jobs because I browsed the web too much, cause it was so boring.

  • Wes says:

    I'm not enjoying my life at all! The job sucks too, though. Not as bad as BAM, and it pays more, but it still sucks. Sucks, sucks, sucks.

  • pAUL says:

    I don't know whats more exciting, this, or waiting for the MJ verdict!

  • Wes says:

    Sarcasm alert!

  • Jazz says:

    u REALLY need to find a job u like, Wes. altho, i think that all of the good jobs r taken by ppl who don't deserve them(well...most of them)or those ppl did deserve them at first but were...*ahem*.....corrupted.(so to speak)

    Oh, i hav my xanga link there now...hehe. i keep messing around with the damn xanag and i finally got it, so i better come here more often!heehee.

  • Jesus says:

    You should move to NYC or something, you definitely need a scene change or something. I think you live in dullsville and it sux.

  • Liz says:

    Well of course you want to blow your brains out Wes, you just finished reading Goethe! Read something more uplifting, like the tax code.

  • Wes says:

    Liz: Actually, I thought it was interesting how many insights Werther had that seem applicable to my current situation. If only I had a friend with pistols I could borrow!

    Jesus: Yeah, I've been trying to get a move to NYC together, but I haven't been able to find any work there! Been applying and applying to jobs to no avail. :/

    But maybe I'm not supposed to go -- maybe I'm destined to pull a Werther!

  • Meryl says:

    Young Werther inspired numerous youths to commit suicide. If I recall correctly.

    It reminds me of this chapter in The Tipping Point about suicide epidemics and psychological triggers. Apparently when suicides are written up in the news, the number of suicides flares up in the areas where the suicides were reported.

    Kafka, Camus, Gide...perhaps a little light reading is in order?? Have you ever read Bone by Jeff Smith?

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