So I probably won't be posting too much in the following days, weeks, months, whatever.. I've got some decisions to make. I've been looking at these graduate programs and even the program overviews are confusing and intimidating the hell out of me. See, I'm the kind of person who likes to fully comprehend a thing before I take it on, and I don't know what it means to defend a dissertation or understand what half of these requirements would entail -- and even though these things wouldn't take place for at least another three or four years, that length of time itself strikes me as utterly unfathomable.
Also, I'm seriously considering the fact that I'll never get to do the things I want to do most in my life, so should I just give up on those and aim for a career I could handle and maybe enjoy to a point but would never really love? Or should I just go ahead and exit stage left now, because why suffer through a life in which I'd be perpetually just going through the motions? Nothing really seems worth it anymore. Hell, it never did.
Anyway, before I disappear for however long and possibly longer, here's a survey/quiz thing that Mickey posted and that I said I'd answer. Here goes:
7 things I plan to do before I die:
1. Buy lots of liquor.
2. Order a nice sushi dinner.
3. Eat said sushi dinner.
4. Mix a bunch of drinks and get bloody wasted.
5. Watch some great movies.
6. Go for a late night/early morning walk.
7. Slide beneath the wheels of an approaching truck.7 things I can do:
1. Interpret statements in creative and morbid ways.
2. Write fiction that nobody wants to print.
3. Overanalyze cartoon plots.
4. Scare the crap out of people just by walking into a room.
5. Throw parties that nobody wants to attend.
6. Script the worst commercials ever.
7. Cook (according to me).7 things I cannot do:
1. Cook (according to people who've tasted my cooking).
2. Resist an attractive toy under $4.
3. Dance well.
4. Keep friends.
5. Succeed at anything I want to do.
6. Cheer up.
7. Live.
7 things that attract me to another person:
1. Sinister eyes.
2. Sarcastic mouths.
3. Commentary to match.
4. Writing skill.
5. Kindness to me.
6. Cruelty to everyone else.
7. Cool (blue) hair!7 things that I say most often:
1. Bloody hell.
2. Interesting.
3. Fucking -- !
4. This sucks.
5. Could be.
6. Little bit.
7. Bastard.7 celebrity crushes:
1. Winona Ryder
2. Alyson Hannigan
3. Penelope Cruz
4. Anne Hathaway
5. Amy Acker
6. Mikako Ichikawa
7. Julie Delpy
I'm gonna cheat and skip the "7 people I want to do this" category -- if you want to do it, feel free! And if not, don't. Up to you. Later, then.
danielleR says: 
